Awoke early even without bright light as it’s overcast - that left of center dull gray that signals rain (and according to the forecast bits of snow.
I sometimes wonder if that absence of a true winter this year has had anything to do with the number of viruses including COVID that’s gone around or if it was just time - we’ve been spared many decades and according to historians, we were well overdue.
Be that as it may, it doesn’t dim the anxiety that simmer just below the surface or the tears that are on the heels of that. Keeping it in the moment, living those moments, taking in all of the moments as they are without judgement one day to the next is the only way I”ll get through this.
And connection - calling, texting, COMMUNICATING more frequently.
The day went by quickly and felt like I accomplished very little. Organizing myself into a schedule is painfully difficult. There’s so many things i’ve wanted to do that I don’t know where to begin as none of them are enjoyable - cleaning/organizing my inbox at work/pjoye, going through hard drives, reading industry books. And finishing the actual items I need to finish for work.
Much easier to drop into social media or lightroom and piddle.
I DID get Yoga in today and my back felt better for most of the morning but very clear to me I need a proper desk chair/stool and standing desk, a BETTER couch (that’s part of the culprit) and a proper bed. In agony 95% of the time.
Hives came late day then thankfully stopped.
Got a walk in and strolled on rain dusted streets; cool but not as cold as yesterday as the sun came out. Still people wandering - a lot of dog walkers - but generally everything is shut down.
Talked with my brother who was in an accident and is now on short term leave which I feel is a blessing during this surreal time. Also quick chat with Dad and Marc - lots of art discussion.
More cities closed down today, grocery store panic is real (no toilet paper to be found anywhere from anyone) and can’t even get a peapod schedule til sometime in April (though not able to schedule that far but trying).
And looks like Biden is the clear lead.
My thoughts on the shitshow today - how I wish they’d 25th amendment trump and replace him with pence and bring the obama teams back in to help redirect and right the ship as I think consumer confidence would go up and the markets could stabilize. At the very least, begging congressional reps to consider. Also reaching out the MA AG as I believe trump’s recklessness of coastal cities was intentional.
Overall life remains surreal; eerily quiet. And yet in all that, a possibility for growth. A kind of time we’ve never been given before. That sits with me daily - what can I do with it so as not to squander it.
Food
Breakfast: Smoothie
Lunch: avocado toast, peanuts, blackberries
Dinner: Salad with chicken & Italian dressing
Dessert: (2) pieces of candy, (4) chocolate chip cookies
